Have you ever felt lost, or maybe confused, about everything going on around you. Maybe hopeless, sad, depressed? The list could go on.

I think we can all agree we’ve felt all of these emotions at some point, especially this year. Something I’ve come to learn and realize is to trust God in the midst of chaos, and to continue to pursue him even when life gets difficult.

I went to the OVX experience (now called Activate) school in the fall of 2019, and when I came back I felt motivated, on fire for Jesus, and ready to go.

But after being back home, something I lacked was continuing to pursue my relationship with God. As I lived my daily life, I started to get tired, stopped reading my bible as much, stopped praying everyday, and slowly but surely I fell into this hole, where I wasn’t happy with myself and with life in general. This year has been tough for me spiritually and emotionally -from car accidents, finances, living situations, job situations, family situations, etc.

I felt hopeless, thinking “ I’ve failed God” or “I’ve messed up too many times”.

I was thinking about how I came back from this amazing experience but still managed to fall back into my ways.

I was disappointed in myself. I felt as if I had hit rock bottom.

One day I was just tired of everything, so I went to my piano and just started playing and worshipping God, and there in that moment he met me.

I felt his peace all around me, and in that moment I knew he still loves me, and that it wasn’t too late to run back to him.

All of my doubts went away as I started to worship. I realized in that moment that even at my lowest points, God is there for me. All I had to do was cry out to him.

We all have our issues and problems, and a lot of the time we miss the point. Going through problems in life strengthens our faith and produces perseverance. These situations teach us to put our full faith and trust in God. God loves you and is for you.

Forget about the situation you are in- the things you’re going through, your imperfections- and remember that you are loved. Trust God in the midst of chaos.

 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

James 1: 2-4 NIV